It’s not a big deal.
Stop telling me that I’m going to regret it because I’m not. I don’t care.
If I do regret it then let me do that. It’s not your problem.

The reason why I’m not auditioning is because I’d much rather not do it because I know I’m not getting any parts. I don’t stand a chance and I’d rather not do it than try out for one and beat myself up for not getting anything.
I’d appreciate it if everyone and their mothers would leave me alone about it.
Thanks, but the solos belong to the girls who can actually sing them.

You can take my family. Take all that I’ve ever known and loved. Manipulate my entire past, the way I was raised, but you can never ever take my future. You can try but you will fail. I will continue. I will press on, I will go to college, will make something better of myself, show you that I can get through this, and start my own family.
A family that isn’t based upon lies. One that doesn’t require taking advantage of a government aid system. A family that will have God as the foundation, love as the foundation. My family will never have to be lied to and we’ll take care of each other. My family will be strong and will never, ever be torn apart, not even by death.
I’ll start the family that I should have grown up with, the family that I should have had and not the fake one I was raised from.
I’m moving forward. Moving on. I’m not going to let you destroy me because I know God is on my side. He’s walking me through it all and I know that if I keep moving forward through Christ then I can move forward through anything.

You will never get the best of me,

Gabbie

I’m sitting in front of a computer screen crying because I don’t know what else to do.

I should be happy because I just made four people’s lives easier by disassociating myself from them. I am happy. I have no reason to cry.

I guess today was pretty successful, but I’m upset about the way it all had to end. 

going to fight to have your attention.
I’m not going to take time that belongs to someone else.
If you’re what she wants then you’re what she’ll get and I will fall away and wait ever so patiently.

Done.
Make it stop.

I’m just done.
So done.

The power cord for my laptop stopped working so now I have to order a new one. There’s only one person I want to talk to but I doubt he wants anything to do with me. I don’t want to lie to anyone anymore about this stupid situation that has nothing to do with me. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin at the moment. I don’t want to think about going back to Altamonte. My boyfriend is an idiot. I want a book to read so I can forget about my life and all the problems in it. I just want to work on flvs and not worry about anything. Everything feels unbalanced and I can’t take it anymore.

I’m not jealous of her confidence.

I have plenty confidence.

I’m discouraged because there’s competition and I’d rather not compete.